Addiction was shit. Lipstick, bars and high heels were nice. Brainfog was useful. If you are a friend of mine reading this, don't worry, I am fine. Better than ever. Kisses.
So much to love here - so much that I empathise with. I love our ability as addicts to take a look at the bigger picture and see our lives for what they are worth, I think it might be the best gift recovery has given me. In the "before", I never thought my life was worth much, and I don't think some non-addicts see the beauty in the everyday. Thank you for sharing.
I’ve been so addicted to pain throughout my life that there were times when I didn’t experience it that I missed it. I’ve not put that in written word before so it has my heart beating fast. Yet there’s so much truth in it, so much truth.
Weirdly, in the past, I never thought any of my addictions, were addictions…even though alcohol had been my social crutch since early teens, food my emotional crutch since early childhood.
Alcohol has been easier to drop than food(binge) but with awareness I feel more in control when it happens.
Same! Sex, tv, food, work, drink, shopping etc. all cycles I’ve broken from the past. Yet had no idea they were unhealthy for me.
Adopting an anti inflammatory way of eating helped me break the sugar rush cycle. Once I achieved that I became fuller for longer, satisfied by food for the first time in my life and my taste bud improved so I enjoy food more and no longer think about what’s coming next or have big emotional reactions/binged like I did before that. It’s one topic I want to write on but it hasn’t happened yet.
Of course I miss it all. I miss cigarettes rabidly, I miss sinking into my sofa with a head full of weed, I miss drinking at the bar without awkward side eye from everyone from my dates to my coworkers.
So much to love here - so much that I empathise with. I love our ability as addicts to take a look at the bigger picture and see our lives for what they are worth, I think it might be the best gift recovery has given me. In the "before", I never thought my life was worth much, and I don't think some non-addicts see the beauty in the everyday. Thank you for sharing.
I’ve been so addicted to pain throughout my life that there were times when I didn’t experience it that I missed it. I’ve not put that in written word before so it has my heart beating fast. Yet there’s so much truth in it, so much truth.
Well done though for writing it now.
Weirdly, in the past, I never thought any of my addictions, were addictions…even though alcohol had been my social crutch since early teens, food my emotional crutch since early childhood.
Alcohol has been easier to drop than food(binge) but with awareness I feel more in control when it happens.
Same! Sex, tv, food, work, drink, shopping etc. all cycles I’ve broken from the past. Yet had no idea they were unhealthy for me.
Adopting an anti inflammatory way of eating helped me break the sugar rush cycle. Once I achieved that I became fuller for longer, satisfied by food for the first time in my life and my taste bud improved so I enjoy food more and no longer think about what’s coming next or have big emotional reactions/binged like I did before that. It’s one topic I want to write on but it hasn’t happened yet.
Of course I miss it all. I miss cigarettes rabidly, I miss sinking into my sofa with a head full of weed, I miss drinking at the bar without awkward side eye from everyone from my dates to my coworkers.
Denying it is just silly, and dangerous.